Last Thursday I shared some big news that I'm expecting again and to be honest I was really nervous to share the news. My level of excitement is over the moon, but getting here wasn't easy. If you remember back in march 2013 I had a terrible miscarriage that broke my family’s hearts. It took us a long time to get pregnant and then at 2 months and 4 days the babies heart stopped and instead of turning to anger, I turned to faith and evaluated everything in our lives.
I took a long break to heal and to find me, which was amazing. I realized things that I thought were important just didn't matter anymore and I started to value the bigger picture. I took a breath and day by day found my inner peace, which allowed me to help heal our family. Once you experience a miscarriage it has you on edge. If it happens once, it could happen again. My soul still longs for that baby we lost and the fear of it happening again is so near to my heart.
Right before CHA I had my first doctor’s appointment and I LOVE my new doctor! She is so darling and said "I see that your last pregnancy was a miscarriage. I am going to do everything I can to help you carry this baby to full term, but our first goal is to get you past the 10 week mark” (which is when I last miscarried).
At my 3 month checkup I was filled with joy knowing that I was at 12 weeks. It's amazing how priceless hearing that heartbeat was to me. I do believe that this baby will be okay and we all love it so. Yes I've been sick like a dog and I've lost 12lbs. Yes I'm totally tired all the time and all I want to do is sleep. Yes it's weird having Mr. Sonboul and my boys watching my every move, but in a way I love it. I've never felt so pampered and cared for. No one lets me pick anything up and it's as if I'm preggo in the 1800's lol! And because I'm obsessed with goals...
Here are my goals:
- Make it to 6 months first
- Make it to full term
- Try not to gain back everything I lost.
- Find out what it is at 18 weeks
- take it easy.
Before I go, I wanted to thank everyone for all the sweet comments and joy sent our way. Your friendships mean so much to me and I will be forever grateful! Thanks for being so amazing to me
PS next week I'll share pics and other due date info :)