The post you are about to read is honesty at it's finest!
When I'm stressed, I eat... it's that simple! Me being a silly girl, I decided it was a good idea to start a new company 8 months ago and let's just say that food has become my psychologist and goto when making decisions for Chickaniddy. Now that the company is growing fast and doing so well, I feel like I can finally take on the "stop emotionally eating" goal... again. Yep it's an ongoing battle for me friends and one of these days I'll master it or at least get close to mastering it.
I weighed myself in yesterday and 309 lbs showed up on the scale. I'm bummed, but not surprised. I have been feeling so sluggish and all of my clothes I bought for CHA were a size 22. Back in January I stood in the dressing room wanting to cry, being that I was putting on a size 22 and it fit like a glove. I wanting a change right then and there, but there was no time. When you are as busy as me and stress is coming through your every crack, it can be hard to put down the ice cream and chocolate. REALLY HARD!
Now I want to make something very clear. I love myself and I will love myself at any size! But this weight thing has been kicking my butt for way too long and I HATE IT! So I've decided baby steps are for me and could help me get back on track. This week I am only focusing on 3 goals:
- Cut out sugar
- NO eating after dinner
- Workout and get moving M-F.
Why am I cutting out the sugar? I'm TOTALLY addicted to it! For the past 8 months I couldn't go a 1/2 day without eating something sweet and my gotos are always Ice Cream and Chocolate. Yum! I know myself and that I can't realistically handle eating them in a healthy way right now, so like a bad boyfriend they MUST go! Just writing these words makes me feel like I'm breaking up with my hot rebel boyfriend whom I LOVE. See??? It has to go!
So what's my long term goal? To lose 50lbs by July. I figured from Winter CHA to Summer CHA... the next time I "almost cry" in the fitting room, it will be from tears of joy and getting far away from a size 22. Being that I am pretty much the same weight as my last weight loss photo shoot, I'm going to rock these pics again. The Fassy (fat+sassy) girl in me is really ready for this change. Really ready! Plus with the weather warming up so early in our beach city, I would like to feel comfortable in a bathing suit by the end of summer.